well another week has come and gone and a new one has started ... amoungst the times passed it has still be too long since my travel partner *lifes journey* has truely spoken with me. it seems that she only really speaks when she is mad at me so i guess the time apart means i havent done anything to upset her as of late. But as that is a good thing it is still extremly difficult going day to day without at least hearing her voice. my soul aches with the distance that is between us and though she is mending nicely with her new chosen bounded partner ... i can not do so with another for she is my travel partner that no one will replace. The short times that i do get to talk to her are all so brief and always cut short because she has to go or i call at bad times and bother her .. i do my best to wait on her calls but they rarely come in.
i know i dont blog very often but that is mainly due to the fact that i am a closed indiviual that is trying to open up but have no one to help guide me or at least walk with me on this journey of mine. those that know me know only the side of me i chose to show them and thus when it comes to certain things about me they dont understand them. so quite honestly is why Cloaked Shadow is here ... i have always been a child of the shadows and enjoy the life i have had there ... but in the recently passed years i have cloaked myself even from the shadows i use to happily play in .. hence go Cloaked Shadow ..
i do wish there was someone out there that had the time and willingness to put forth effort enough in someone who is lost and willing to find ways back to where he is happy again, but amoungst the shadows of shadows none can see .....
Cloaked
Cloaked, please don't think of me as out of line. I too have suffered the lose of someone I thought was my soul mate. It took me years, and I do mean years, to get over him. I was very lonely for all those years. One day it just hit me. I'm giving him my power, by letting him make me feel all alone. By beating myself up wondering what did I do wrong. After that, I started doing a "true love" come to me spell. I kept doing it once a month for almost a year. Then, right before my eyes was my true love. I knew him all along but never looked at him that way. But there he was. I feel the God and Goddess made me go throw all of that pain just so I could see who my true soul mate is. How the events came to pass, everything that brought us together, I feel was the divine. I guess what I'm trying to say is, don't give her you power. Take it back, and apply it to finding you true soul mate.
Mysterious LadyI wish you luck on your long hard path.
Many Many Blessings to you. ML
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