First I want to wish you the sweet breath of blessing and some soothing for your soul. Secondly, one of the things I have come to learn in my studies of divinity is that gods and goddesses do not dump us, but neither is it like that Footsteps in the Sand poem where the god carries you. Rather, it is a case of our god or goddess stepping back to allow us to discover things for ourselves, take steps on our own and grow on our own. But they are always there. As well, sometimes we miss a subtle message from our gods or we miss an answer or a gift because we are expecting or wanting something else. The gods work in their own ways and we have to be attentive and open of heart and mind to receive those messages. It's really hard to do that sometimes, but it is esseential!

A recommendation I can make is to contact a pagan clergy person or perhaps find a reputable psychic, tarot reader or other that can do some divination for you to help sort out some questions and answers a little more in depth. You may be able to find a pagan clergy person through your local pagan friendly shop and they can be a wonderful help in sorting through anything you are dealing with right now.
Another point, if you are having issues with physical health, you need to put that first and take care of that before working out any relationship problem or anything in the realm of loving another person.
As a last point one of the things I would say most truthfully is in regard to letting go, changing focus and changing self. You cannot change yourself for another person! Change has to come from a profound sense of need within oneself and if you do not feel that need in a very deep way, to change something for yourself, you don't benefit from going through the motions or trying to bend to fit another person's needs or desires. It is allright to let go, it is painfully hard sometimes, but I can absolutely say from my own personal experience that the time, energy and pain you waste in pursuing something that will never be, you will always regret. Shifting focus to care for your body and heart and mind is what is needed to become the person you want to be and so eventually become the person that draws the right lover to you. It is so hard to see that right now, I know, but letting go from fixing on one object of desire is the best thing you can ever do for yourself. I wish you the best - please make yourself welcome over at my page anytime if you want to talk.
Take care of yourself! It is the absolute best thing you can do and you should never ever feel guilty about putting your own heart, mind and body first, if that is what you need at any given time.
Respectfully,
Niamh

I have to agree with Naimh--take care of your physical self first. Get yourself healthy. Otherwise, it seems to me that you're going through a Dark Moon phase in your life. We all have them from time to time. We feel separated from Divinity and things around us seem to be falling apart...including relationships. It's difficult while in that time to understand what and why things are the way they are. The dark moon is a time for turning inward, the time before great change. It can be difficult and painful now, but when the silver cressent appears again, all will settle down. Things in your life will most likely not be the same but most of the growing pains will have subsided. The God and Goddess havn't abandoned you. They have stepped back to let you do what needs to be done. I don't know what pantheon you honor, but when I was studying the Egyptian pantheon, I came across this prayer to Anubis: in part it states, "Great Anubis, remove me from my fear that I may look at it from all sides to see what must be done." It doesn't say "take my fear away", if you can, try to step back from yourself and look at what's going on in your life. It's possible that you'll get a better idea of what's going on. You also need to be prepared to trim and prune where necessary. If you are unable to do this the first time, try again. A guided meditation may help as well. Write out where you want to go and record yourself. Play it back and see where it takes you. I like the idea of Pagan clergy. He/She may well be extremely helpful in your search. Don't give up. We all have these times in our lives. Don't give in to dispair, we're all here for you.
Bright Blessings,

I couldn't say any better or clearer than Niamh did. You can't make any person love you. It has to come from heart and soul of the other person. If she doesn't seem to love you, then she just doesn't. Why use your energy on a person that doesn't appreciate the love that you have for her. Trust me in that you're wasting your energy on a person that doesn't even deserve your attention. Focus your attention on healing yourself. Niamh is right in that the right person and true love cannot enter your life until you clean up the situation you're in with the woman in your life. The next person that will come along in your life will not want to get involved with you when you have baggage around, or your heart and thoughts are elsewhere. You are so focused on her that you will not be able to see what blessings that could be coming your way. The Goddess will only help those that cannot help themselves. If you can resolve a situation on your own, well the Goddess sees it in that way. There is a lesson to be learned here, and until you can figure it out and learn from this lesson, the Goddess will step back from it but she will also be in your corner so to speak rooting you on. The Goddess is always there and by your side, call upon her when you have situations that you can’t control or is out of your hands.
Warm Blessings,